What has been restricted for a very long time is now demanding to be released.

May pagkakataon pala na ang kailangan ko ay hindi comfort, but the chance to grieve para sa mga kailangan kong ipagluksa.

Kahit pala ang mga bahagi ng pagkatao ko na pinatay at pinapatay, kailangan palang ipagluksa.

It is only now that I see the purpose of grieving, of not rushing to be happy again, of not hurrying my healing.

No, I don’t feel any pleasure in going through sorrow. Hindi ko ikinatutuwa ang pagdanas ng sakit.

But I know now that this is a vital part of the process. If I want my healing to be genuine, I also need to allow myself to face and feel what is real, no matter how painful.

Then, I’ll seek comfort. I hope I would seek The Source and not just the resources.

I may be talking about pain now (which some may not want to hear). But don’t you worry. This is not how the story would end, I know.
It will not end in pain,
but in victory.
I’d come out stronger and wiser. I’ll love better.

With the Lord. Always.

Amen.